Monday, July 30, 2007

Me and You

Me and You. That was our wedding song. We had so much fun that night! I guess I haven't really taken the time to think about that day until now. July 28Th 2006 is our wedding date. We just celebrated our first anniversary this past weekend.

We celebrated by painting our bathroom. Sounds like lots of fun, right? Well, we actually did have fun. I guess that's why we got married. Our lives are fun together.

How can painting a bathroom be fun you ask. Ill tell you. We were blaring a mix of Hank Williams Jr, AC DC, and I tried to listen to some old No Doubt but that wasn't very fun for Scott so we put in some other old school tunes and played... I mean painted ALL DAY!

I'm going to tell the story of Scott and I, mostly for him and myself but maybe it will help to take my readers back to a time when they first fell in love. I think it is important to remember those times and cherish them. I never want to forget the reasons I fell in love with Scott or how special he is to me.

In the small town in Ohio where I grew up there are two Catholic Elementary Schools. St. Nicholas and St. Thomas Aquinas. The year is 1989 and Scott and Lindsay are off to Kindergarten. Scott goes to St. Nick and Lindsay goes to St. Tom.

The first time the two meet would not be until their 2ND grade year. The two schools celebrate the sacrament of Holy Communion together. Lindsay can vaguely remember the little Scott from back then, however looking back today it seems the two were always on the same path.

In the years to come there would be more celebrations that the schools held together. Reconciliation, Confirmation, and Graduation into High School. In all of these celebrations Lindsay and Scott were polite and friendly to each other, nothing more and nothing less.

Scott went onto Bishop Rosecrans for his freshmen year. Lindsay decided to go to West High, a public school that her parents had chosen. She was quick to make new friends and the school was a good fit for her.

The first few months of high school passed by and Scott was less than satisfied with the High School he had chosen, not that it was a bad school but he had a few friends that attended a public school. Scott had heard of the Agriculture programs being offered in public schools. Naturally this was interesting to Scott due to his love for the outdoors. So he made the choice to attend West, the same school that Lindsay was attending.

At lunchtime Scott and Lindsay often sat at the same table. Laughing and gossiping with friends the way that high school students do, not paying too much attention to the other. In classes Lindsay would look for a seat and see Scott sitting in the back with an empty desk by him. She knew that Scott would if anything be entertaining to sit beside, being the comedian that he is.

Years past by and Scott and Lindsay remained friends all through High School. Finally their Senior year came around and it was Homecoming season. One day in class Scott asked Lindsay who she was going to take to the Homecoming. Lindsay told him nobody had asked her yet. Scott told Lindsay that Jarrod wanted to ask her but he was scared she would say no. Lindsay told Scott that she would like to go with Jarrod.

They dated their entire senior year. They became very close friends however as High School came to an end and jobs and college began they realized that what they had together was a friendship and not a relationship. So Jarrod and Lindsay stayed friends and went their separate ways.

The years passed and Scott found a pretty girl that he liked. They went to parties and had a lot of good times together but it was never enough to just be together. They always had to be at a party or out. These types of relationships just don't seem to last.

Meanwhile Lindsay had a boyfriend that went college to play football in Tennessee. As hard as it was for her to admit this type of relationship was more of a fairytale than real life and it just couldn't last.

Scott and Lindsay had to face the facts. The people that they had chosen to love had chosen to love other things like game days and big parties. Neither of which were very important to Lindsay or Scott. So with heavy hearts and many tears cried they moved on.

Another year passed by and there were different guys in and out of Lindsay's life but she was afraid to open up. A broken heart is hard to mend. Scott tried to find another girlfriend as well but he was busy trying to work a full time job and didn't have time for parties and good time friends.

Lindsay started to think that maybe she would never find someone. That maybe her heart was too broken and she would never be able to truly give it to somebody again. As much as she wanted to love there comes a time when you have been hurt so much that you don't want to run the risk of feeling that kind of pain again. At least if she was alone nobody could hurt her.

Scott still went out with his buddies, at least he could go out and have a good time on the weekends. It isn't easy when all your friends are going out all the time and have girlfriends, but he got by.

One evening Lindsay's little sister Caitlin called her. She told Lindsay that her boyfriend was having a big party and she should come. Lindsay wasn't sure but she didn't have much else to do so it sure beat sitting alone again.

Lindsay pulled into the drive way, it was packed with cars and people standing around. For a second she thought about going back home. She was nervous. Who would be there? Did she look okay? What if they all stare at her? She took a deep breath and headed for the door.

When she got inside she thought "great". The whole living room was full of couples. What was she supposed to do, sit and watch them? Even her sister was there with her boyfriend. Just as she started to tell Caitlin she was just going to go home she saw a free seat on the couch next to Scott. He didn't have a girl with him so Lindsay thought to herself well if nothing else at least it would be entertaining to sit by Scott, being the comedian that he is.

So they sat beside each other and laughed all night long. Scott kept trying to hold her hand, but Lindsay thought he was just joking around. That's just how Scott is. Always flirting and joking, but at least she was finally having a good time. She glanced around the room and everybody was gone. My goodness it was nearly 2:00 am. They both had to go to work the next morning so they decided to call it a night.

The next day at work she kept thinking of how much fun Scott was the night before. Who would have thought he was that fun? And why hadn't she noticed that before? She tried to get him out of her head because she didn't know if she wanted to take it any further. Besides she had known Scott her whole life and obviously there was nothing between them, right?

A few days passed and Lindsay's little sister called her and said that her boyfriend was having people over again. Lindsay felt her heart beat like a drum in her chest, cheeks turning red hot, would he be there? Then she thought wait a second its just Scott so what if he is there, we'll have fun again. It wasn't like she had a crush on him, right? So she went.

Lindsay pulled into the driveway but there really weren't many people there. She went inside and everybody was leaving. So just as she got ready to leave Caitlin said hey why don't we just stay here and play cards or watch a movie? Lindsay said yeah just what I want to do sit around like the third wheel all night. Then Caitlin said well Scott is staying too.

That changed things. It changed a lot of things. What was this a date? A date with Scott? No way, it couldn't be. Could it? Lindsay started to get nervous again but before she could she was having fun. Then she was holding Scott's hand. Then she was planning when they could get together again.

One year later she was planning their Wedding. It seems that they were just meant to be. I believe that God kept putting us in the same place in the same times but we had other plans. Plans that didn't work because they were our plans and not Gods. Turns out he knows what hes doing.

The moral of the story is you can't plan love.

Also my heart goes out to young people out there who have had their heart broken. Its very real and the fact that you're young doesn't make it any less real. If you have been in pain because of a relationship keep you head up.

You never know who you are meant to be with and you never know when they might show up. Scott was there my whole life but I never saw him the way I see him now. So open your eyes and take a look around, try not to look past the guy/gal that has been there all along! try not to look past your friends, God gave them to you for a reason!

So although this is my absolute favorite story I would love to hear yours..... come on its fun to write it! Also if you have a broken heart I would love to give you more encouragement, who knows maybe i know how you feel. Maybe you were meant to read this blog right now this very second so that we can be friends........ maybe, maybe, maybe!

Friday, July 27, 2007

Guilt Free

So I have been writing about all the many gifts God has blessed me with. I plan to periodically make post of thanks. Today I just want to write about what has been on my mind recently. I am trying to get right with God.

I love music but sometimes I prefer to hear conversation so I listen to VCY America on my radio. Its a Christian station. Yesterday they were talking about the feeling of guilt. A feeling that I have to admit I feel often.

This preacher said that there is no need to feel guilt. Guilt comes from Satan. He said what we must do is pinpoint what we are feeling guilty about. That gets tricky because it can go as far back to your childhood. When you do figure out what you feeling of guilt is stemming from all you have to do is talk to God about it.

Take me for example I feel guilt because I'm not going to Church on a regular basis. So all I need to do is say " God I'm sorry I have not been going to Church. Please forgive me." Then GO. The Bible says that God will not bring up the things you have done wrong after you have asked for forgiveness, Satan does that. The only time God might bring something up is to show you have much he has loved you, not to make you feel bad about yourself

I guess I have been waiting around on my husband to go with me. We have a way of letting worldly matters take the place of going to Church. Mowing, cleaning, painting and so on. Starting this Sunday I go no matter what. I don't know why it is so hard for me to go by myself but it is!

I am the ultimate people pleaser. I don't like it and I don't know why I am always looking for approval, but I am. So I ask that God help me to want to please him instead of people who I will never be able to please! That I can find confidence in him to not feel pressured by peers.

I have been reading aloud to my husband at night from the Message ( the Bible in today's lingo). We are almost through Luke. Last night I read that you can ask God for anything that you need. I really like the example that Luke gives.

If you child ask you for something to eat would you give him a snake? If you daughter ask you for something to eat would you give her a spider? Just as you would not do these things to your child God will not do these things to you. God who created you and your child loves you more than you can understand.

God wants to give us the things that we need because we are his children. I do not have children but I know that my parents would give me the world if they could. Imagine how much more God can give and wants to give. I'm not saying to ask for ridiculous things. What I'm saying is to be direct with God when asking for the things that you need and I think God will be direct with you.

Is there anything that you're feeling guilty about?

Is there anything you want to ask God for?

Monday, July 9, 2007

Best Sisters



Four more blessings in my life! Heather, Joe, Gwen, and Grant I love you guys!



For many years I have called Heather my "best sister". Now my other two sisters they are the best too, but Heather and I spent a few years being very close. Most likely because she was my idle and we just get along great. I think we have the same humor and having someone to laugh with is the best gift ever!



When Heather and Joe started dating life was great because I finally got a brother!I also gained another person to laugh with, I don't think that Joe and I ever really know what were laughing about but somehow when I'm with him everything becomes funny!



Heather and Joe have blessed me and this world with two precious babes! I cannot believe how much I love them! Heather and I talk about how sometimes you can love somebody so much it makes you cry and that's the truth!

The other day we had a birthday party for my mom and I was talking about all my worries and Heather said "why don't you just quit worrying"w/ no compassion for my obviously mediocre problem. She always knows how to put me in my place.

She doesn't care to sugar coat things she just tells it like it is. There have been times that this ticked me off but truly she is the one person I can go to and know that I will always receive honesty and I know that its because she loves me. There is much to be said about tough lovers and that's my Heather!

We have shared so many good times. Back when Heather first started driving we ruled our small town together and even though she was 4 years older than me she included me in her coolness, I always felt privileged! I always wanted to be just like her.

Which is the reason that I stole her clothes, make-up, jewelry, shoes, Cd's, and much more. Hopefully now that were older Heather can see that I wasn't trying to be a thief. I was trying to be as cool and gorgeous as she is.

I guess these days not much has changed. I still wear her clothes when shes done with them. I still think shes pretty hip for a mom. Most of all I think that she is a gorgeous person inside & out. I pray that one day I grow up to be just like her!